10 - okay
my new job whips ass still. i do feel a bit like i am trying to catch up to my own life a little but i also feel very capable and am handling stuff with as much skill as i can. and it turns out that that's a lot more than i would have guessed.sometimes i get stuck on things and do them a ton, or think about them very hard for a stretch of time mostly uninterrupted or whatever. and since i am medicated to treat my many compulsions it has gotten noticeably less intense. but i also don't really know how to enjoy things another way, so i am learning to be more normal about it.
so anyway the real life things happening to me materially are: i am doing my job and it whips. i have had some social experiences. i ate some oysters and became very ill. i went to my old job's cookout thing and everyone was very nice to me. i got recommended some good comics. my pets are beautiful and healthy.... my housing situation is ideal and my car was having problems that mysteriously fixed themselves (idk if i was imagining them but i don't think i like. imagined the dashboard lights going on). i almost ran out of money but then i didn't. people are guessing my age correctly. i am going to grow out a rat tail because fuck it why not. umm. some other things.
i haven't drawn much this year but i DID pick up the guitar again for the first time since i was like 21 and have been getting noticeably better/more comfortable with it! i learn songs really fast now... and i wrote a few different "songs" which don't have words because idk how to write a song that doesn't sound uncool. but: i am having fun.